There Are Many Doorways Into This Work

Some come through:

• Pre-conception longing or infertility grief

• Birth that cracks you open

• Postpartum collapse that reveals every unhealed wound

• Discovering your child is neurodivergent and recognizing yourself in them

• Motherhood ambivalence you're ashamed to name

• Grief for the mother you never had

• Divorce while mothering

• Sexual trauma surfacing through pregnancy or birth

• Being triggered by touch, breastfeeding, or your child's body

• The realization that you're repeating patterns you swore you'd never repeat

Whatever brought you here, it's not random. You're ready to traverse the underworld of motherhood to reclaim yourself.

Not Sure If This Is the Right Page?

Many mothers are also neurodivergent, highly sensitive, or carrying complex trauma. If you resonate with multiple pages, that's completely normal. These are lenses, not boxes.

You might also connect with: Complex Trauma, C-PTSD & Inner Child Healing (if developmental trauma patterns resonate), Ancestral Healing & the Mother/Father Wound (if you're breaking cycles in your lineage), or Depth Therapy for Mystics, Healers & Spiritual Seekers (if you're navigating spiritual awakening).

What I Specialize In

I'm a licensed therapist in California specializing in motherhood as a spiritual portal. I work with people navigating pre-conception, infertility, pregnancy loss, postpartum collapse, ambivalence, matrescence, and the deep unraveling that comes with becoming, or choosing not to become, a mother.

I work with clients who are:

• Pre-conception and longing for a child, including working through what might be blocking that

• Postpartum and no longer recognizing themselves

• Ambivalent about motherhood and ashamed to admit it

• Healing from miscarriage or pregnancy trauma

• Navigating an abortion, past or recent, and the complex grief that can follow

• Stepmothers navigating a role with no roadmap

• Mothers at crossroads navigating divorce, trauma surfacing, or identity crisis while parenting

• Being triggered by touch, breastfeeding, or physical closeness due to past sexual abuse or violation

• Mothers healing while mothering, reparenting themselves while raising children

• Navigating identity death through matrescence

• Unraveling the mother wound and becoming the mother they never had

I've been in long-term mentorship with Nancy Mae, a spirit baby medium and energy practitioner trained by Walter Makichen, author of Spirit Babies. This lineage deeply informs how I hold space for pre-conception, pregnancy, and the souls waiting to incarnate.

This isn't just about becoming a mother. It's about becoming yourself, in the aftermath of who you thought you had to be.

My Story

I am a cycle breaker, an ancestral healer, and a medicine woman. Much of my own deepest healing has been initiated through the portal of motherhood in all its forms.

The times I decided not to become a mother. Becoming a stepmother at 26 with no roadmap. Becoming a biological mother at 31 and being cracked open in ways I never anticipated. Being mothered by my own mother and family and reckoning with what that did and didn't give me.

I carry Chiron in Cancer and a Scorpio Moon in the fourth house. These placements have been my greatest teachers and the source of some of my most profound undoing. Motherhood, for me, has always been alchemical.

My long-term mentorship with Nancy Mae has shaped how I hold the spiritual dimensions of this work, including the souls waiting to incarnate and the sacred preparation of the field for new life.

I specialize in this terrain because I've walked it.

This Is Not Just About Becoming a Mother

Maybe you're pre-conception, longing for a child who hasn't arrived.

Maybe you're postpartum, no longer who you were and not yet who you'll be.

Maybe you're ambivalent, ashamed to admit you're not sure you even want this.

Maybe you've had a miscarriage and nobody is letting you grieve it properly.

Maybe you've had an abortion and are carrying feelings you weren't given permission to have.

Maybe you're a stepmother navigating a role with no clear definition.

Maybe you're in the middle of divorce while trying to hold it together for your children.

Maybe childhood trauma or sexual abuse is surfacing now that you're pregnant or parenting.

Maybe you can't breastfeed because the touch feels like violation. Maybe you're dissociating when your child touches your body.

Maybe you're a mother now, and it's bringing up everything you thought you healed.

This is not a polished process. This is the underworld of motherhood.

What We Might Explore Together

Pre-Conception Healing, Infertility Grief & Soul-Level Preparation

Trying to conceive, or even thinking about it, can bring up everything. Your relationship with your own mother. Your body shame. Your fear of repeating patterns. The longing that has no language.

And sometimes there's a soul waiting but the timing isn't right. Or your body won't cooperate. Or you're not sure if you even want this.

Birth as Initiation: When Labor Cracks You Open

Birth is not just a medical event. It's a threshold, a portal, an initiation.

Some births are transcendent, altered states where time dissolves and you touch the sacred. Some births are traumatic. Some are psychedelic in their intensity, the timelessness of labor, the ego dissolution as you become something new.

All births are transformative. Even uncomplicated births change you forever. You cross a threshold you can never uncross.

Birth trauma doesn't always come from medical complications. Sometimes it's feeling unsafe during labor, having your choices overridden, dissociating to survive the intensity, or carrying the gap between what you imagined and what actually happened for years afterward.

Birth is your first experience of your child as separate from you and your first experience of yourself as a mother. Both of those thresholds deserve reverence.

Pregnancy Trauma, Abortion & Postpartum Collapse

Pregnancy and postpartum are not always beautiful. Sometimes they're terrifying, dissociative, full of grief for what you're losing, or traumatic in ways no one validates.

Miscarriage deserves to be grieved fully, not minimized or rushed. Abortion can carry complex feelings, relief and grief and confusion all at once, and you deserve space for all of it without shame. Postpartum depression, anxiety, or rage is not a hormonal blip. It's often a full collapse, and it deserves to be taken seriously.

When Touch Feels Like Violation: Breastfeeding & Body Trauma

For survivors of sexual abuse or violation, pregnancy and motherhood can unlock what's been buried.

Sometimes the triggers are breastfeeding, your child touching your body, pregnancy itself, or the everyday acts of caregiving. Your body is responding to real history, not failing you.

Mothers at Crossroads: Divorce, Trauma Surfacing & Identity Crisis

Sometimes motherhood brings you to a breaking point. You may be going through divorce while trying to protect your children, healing from sexual trauma that surfaced during pregnancy or postpartum, processing childhood wounds showing up in your parenting, or in an identity crisis, realizing you don't know who you are outside of motherhood.

Motherhood can be the catalyst that forces you to face what you've been avoiding.

Reparenting Yourself While Raising a Child

Holding your child while holding your own wounded inner child. Trying to give them what you never got, trying not to repeat what was done to you, trying to stay present when you're being pulled back into the past.

You are doing the work your mother couldn't do. And her mother before that. You are the cycle breaker, and that is exhausting and holy and revolutionary all at once.

Navigating Identity Death Through the Portal of Matrescence

Matrescence is the psychospiritual transition into motherhood, the unraveling and reformation of the self. It is often misdiagnosed, misunderstood, and pathologized. Here, it's honored.

You may feel like a stranger to yourself. You may grieve the person you were before. You may rage at your own invisibility. You may feel the haunting grief of your motherline. You may crack open in ways no one warned you about. None of this means something is wrong with you. It means you're crossing a threshold.

Matrescence is not postpartum depression, though they can overlap. It's the identity earthquake of becoming someone new. And it doesn't end after the first year. It ripples through your entire life.

Unraveling the Mother Wound & Becoming the Mother You Never Had

The mother wound isn't always about abuse. Sometimes it's emotional absence, enmeshment, conditional love, being your mother's therapist, never feeling good enough, or watching her sacrifice herself and learning that's what mothers do.

You don't have to forgive her to heal. But you do get to grieve what you didn't get, and you get to choose what you pass on.

Stepmotherhood & Non-Gestational Parenting

Not all mothers give birth. But all mothers navigate the psychospiritual territory of mothering and the ways it breaks you open.

If you're a stepmother, you may feel outside the "real mother" narrative, invisible in spaces that center birth mothers, or exhausted from explaining your legitimacy. There's no roadmap for this role.

My Approach

I hold motherhood as a rite of passage.

This work blends depth psychotherapy with somatic, ancestral, and spiritual modalities. Depending on what your body and psyche need, we might bring in dreams, astrology, ritual, or nervous system work.

We might move through depth therapy and relational witnessing, somatic work, parts work and inner child healing, energy medicine and soul-level preparation work, ritual and grief tending, ancestral healing, or astrology as a sacred map exploring your chart's motherhood themes, the fourth house, the Moon, the IC, Ceres, the cycles of return.

Who This Work Is For

This approach is especially helpful for people who:

• Are trying to conceive and need support with infertility grief or soul-level preparation

• Have experienced miscarriage or pregnancy loss

• Are navigating the complex grief that can follow an abortion

• Are navigating postpartum depression, anxiety, rage, or identity collapse

• Feel ambivalent about motherhood and need a space to be honest about it

• Are stepmothers or non-gestational parents

• Are at a crossroads navigating divorce, trauma surfacing, or identity crisis

• Are being triggered by touch, breastfeeding, or physical closeness with their child

• Are reparenting themselves while raising children

• Are healing the mother wound across generations

• Are walking through matrescence and need it honored, not pathologized

Related work you may resonate with: Complex Trauma, C-PTSD & Inner Child Healing · Ancestral Healing & the Mother/Father Wound · Grief Tending · Therapy for Healers and Empaths · Depth Therapy for Mystics, Healers & Spiritual Seekers · Therapy for Neurodivergent & Highly Sensitive People · Pluto's Realm: Shadow Work, Sex, Death & Transformation